But even angels aren’t immune to darkness. There was a time when I found myself trapped in an abusive relationship, one that slowly took control of everything, even my sacred space online. He isolated me, cut me off from friends, from joy, and from connection. All I had left was YouTube. I turned the camera on and created a portal out of the pain. I’d sit in front of the lens and speak into the void. I told myself, I’m going to go find my friends. They’re in the ether. That’s when YouTube became my diary, a sanctuary and a stage where my vulnerability could breathe. There were times I stopped posting altogether. I let the illusions of social media convince me I wasn’t beautiful enough, but over time, I’ve come to realize I come in seasons. Some seasons, I bear less fruit than others, but that doesn’t make these moments any less special. These offerings, my vulnerability, my voice, my softness, have always been rooted in something deeper within me.
